shit

quiksilver - quik life

Been so caught up with work recently, or rather I dont have much of a choice. saturdays and sundays burnt, and off days not up to me to decide.

To you who once mattered so much to me - I have really nothing to say to you anymore.

No matter what I say or do you don't seem to understand at all

might as well anyway

goodbye to you

Patience

I will wait for you, at your own time, when you are comfortable.
No point forcing and rushing - it is much better for things to come naturally
Even if it turns out otherwise, at least I know I didnt deny myself the opportunity and wonderful times spent.

Giving, giving and giving.

30th may - 19 years old

Well, I must say I had a memorable birthday this year...

At approx 12:10am my doorbell rang and standing right at my doorstep in the wee hours was dwayne, charlene, cheryl, ah bao and jojo with a giant sized cookie! What a surprise visit when I was just about to fall asleep. It was really sweet of them to drop by. Thank you guys! It means a lot to me.

Had a birthday breakfast with mum at our favourite swiss bakery along frankel.
It was pretty funny though, my mum was wearing this white day dress from armani and i was decked out in a orange striped boss short sleeve shirt with white denims - we looked as though we were a part of hugo boss/armani's ad campaign for spring/summer collection. so style.

After which we went to visit ps daph at cgh, thank god that everything went smoothly for her and only a "key hole" operation procedure was required - rest well ps daph!

Met up with shasha for lunch at raffles city at this spiffy looking restaurant by the fountain. If I remember correctly, it has been a year since I have last met up with her. It was definitely refreshing, yet nostalgic. No doubt we havent talked for a long time but it just seemed like yesterday we were hanging out so often. Yet we both changed so much - our environments and present circumstances , social life and all. We had a great time chatting and catching up. =)

By the time I got down to east coast park showered and freshened up it was about 4 plus. There was a xyq bs outing/activity by the beach that day from morning till night... By then those who kayaked were almost done and I couldnt join them. Oh well. Hung around till about seven before rushing down to raffles city area again to meet jeremy for dinner. Loved the food at minotti.

It was planned to go to the Loof for a drink with jeremy but due to several reasons we ended up joining kok wei, jeremy tay and peeps at zouk since it was mambo jambo night and the next day was a public holiday. Oh man. the queue, or rather the swarm of people stuck outside zouk was really scary. Never have I seen soo many people as though it was NDP or something. But thanks to jorg we by passed all the queues and entered the place so quickly - I felt as though I was some vip. The wonders of priority entry. =) Cos it was mambo jambo night, zouk attracted quite a huge crowd of gay men there. Or so I think. It was rather amusing that the crowd was split into two, one the straight people and the other the not straight ones - the straight congregation seemed pretty stiff whereas on the other camp, it was wild! comparatively speaking. Of course, after a while we went over to the gay area. Anyway though as first hesistant and a little worried due to unfamiliarity, I pretty much enjoyed myself that night. Ok, not pretty much, alot! =) After which jeremy kokwei and me went for a quick supper nearby.

Reached home at 4 plus and I was working full shift the next day. I have no idea how I managed to stay awake at work but I did.
What a birthday!

small world

Bumped into charlene, liqi, rachel and aaron at quiksilver while working today.

A short while later lester and karen poh walked into the store as well.

Talk about coincidences - they didnt know I was working there and was on full shift today.

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I thought I had it figured out
I thought things were changing for the better
But now I am back to square one
Better still, I am uncertain of my own feelings
I used to say with conviction that I do know
what I want and what I do not want -
Now I know nothing.

Jordin Sparks - She's on fire!

you're my american idol!

Glimpses of Who You Are

No words could describe You, nothing is as comparable to You
You ARE a true and living God, one that is REAL
You are not far away nor distant -
Your presence is tangible
As much as I would like to put in words what it is like to be in your awesome presence,
I can't-
I stand here in awe of you.

Here In Your Presence

Found in your hands fullness of joy
Every fear suddenly wiped away
Here in your presence
All of my gains now fade away
Every crown no longer on display
Here in your presence

Heaven is trembling in awe of your wonder
Kings and their kingdoms are standing amazed

Here in your presence
We are undone
Here in your presence heaven and earth
Become one
Here in your presence all things are new
Here in your presence everything bows
Before you

Wonderful Beautiful
Glorious Matchless
In every way

More than words - You are God.

Walk On.

And love is not the easy thing
The only baggage you can bring
And love is not the easy thing
The only baggage you can bring
Is all that you can't leave behind

And if the darkness is to keep us apart
And if the daylight feels like it's a long way off
And if your glass heart should crack
And for one second you turn back

Walk on, walk on
What you got they cant steal it
No, they cant even feel it
Walk on, walk on
Stay safe tonight

You're packing a suitcase for a place none of us has been
A place that has to be believed to be seen
You could have flown away
A singing bird in an open cage
Who will only fly, only fly for freedom

Walk on, walk on
What you've got they cant deny it
Cant sell it or buy it
Walk on, walk on
You stay safe tonight

And I know it aches, how your heart it breaks
You can only take so much
Walk on, walk on

Home, hard to know what it is if you've never had one
Home, I cant say where it is but I know I'm going home
That's where the hurt is

And I know it aches and your heart it breaks
And you can only take so much
Walk on

Leave it behind
You've got to leave it behind
All that you fashion
All that you make
All that you build
All that you break
All that you measure
All that you feel
All this you can leave behind
All that you reason
It's only time
All that you bear
No more than a feeling on my mind
All that you see
All that you wear
All that sense
All that you scheme
All you dress up
All that you've seen
All you create
And all that you wreck
All that you hate

you have got to move on.

sophia - nerina pallot

5 o'clock and a fire escape symphony
spilling out across the road and the square.
And the sky's the same as your own, do you think of me?
Do the parks, and trees, and the leaves reach you there?
After the rain, in the lonely hours he haunts me, calling out
Again, and again.

Sophia, Sophia, I'm burning, I'm burning
It's a fire, a fire I cannot put out
Sophia, Sophia, I'm learning that some things I can't go without
And one of those is him

And now I walk these streets like a stranger in my hometown.
Learn the language, from the words when I speak
But he changed me, I'm his ghost since he came around
And now I count the hours and the days in the weeks.

Passion and silence.
Every word. Every lime. A measure. Its the science of the soul
And his books, they breathe a reason and now I want to know...

Sophia, Sophia, I'm burning, I'm burning
Its a fire, a fire I cannot put out
Sophia, Sophia, I'm learning that some things I can't go without
And one of those in him.

You, with your new born eyes,
have you ever loved a man like I loved him?
Do you hurt, but still feel alive, like never before?
Oh sophia, sophia

Sophia, Sophia, I'm burning, I'm burning
Its a fire, a fire I cannot put out
Sophia, Sophia, I'm learning that some things I can't go without.
I cant go without him.

Its a beautiful song