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hmm... where shall i begin? ... So many things happened within the past 5 days.

1. Toronto bound-
On thurs morning the promo timetable was like finally out... After waiting for a whole month and unable to confirm to anything, I can now say that I am going to toronto!!! Can't wait to go to toronto airport church man. I was telling God i would give anything just to go there esp since i don't think i will have the time for the next 3 years. Was supposed to pay for the tickets by aug by i delayed it till now becos i couldnt commit due to my exam commitment. Remembered in aug i was trying all sorts of ways to avoid the clash between my exam period and the trip, but it was like throwing myself against a wall... Honestly i was really disheartened but i just left it to God and his will for me... Wow. i sure did get a surprise! thank god for this opportunity!! Now i just can't wait to go! am expecting great things! :)

2. Touched By GoD.
[till the kingdoms of my heart bow to the kingdom of the Christ]

Really grateful to god 4 all he has done in my life.
For a few months I had been inconsistent with my walk with god and things weren't exactly smooth sailing - passive and unfruitful if i might say... I really struggled with surrendering completely all i am to Him and i knew that if i don't make that step, i won't be able to go further from where i was. It was something that God wanted of me but i just couldnt let go.

Then Jesus said to his disciples,"if anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me..." matthew 16:24

As time passed, it took its toll on me - weariness crept in, anger crept in, sin crept in, unthankfulness, dissastisfaction with life, and so on. Trust me, its not smart to run away from God. Service after service, cell after cell, God kept warning me if i were to keep walking down from this path i will end up dead. Honestly. He warned me of solomon who compromised in his walk with God, in the end though with all his splendor ended up in a undesirable plight. And many other instances.

On Sat youth service it was so loud and clear. satan wants my soul and life and he seeks to steal, kill and destroy the destiny God had for me. God reminded me of the prophecies he spoke over me and what he did and showed me in the last youth camp season - it was barely a glimpse of what he had in store but it was already like the most incredible thing, even up to now. Still, during the altar call i found it so difficult to even stand and respond. it was tough. Boy. It was only through God i could stand. Shortly caleb came and prayed for me... the words he spoke when he prayed over me jus pierced and broke my heart. "stop struggling" It was God speaking to me. At that moment i just broke down. God was operating on me. i am glad to say that God has brought healing and restoration to my life.
I really thank God 4 his love and faithfulness to me.
There is no other i will live for and no other to whom i will worship.

I would like to encourage you, who has just read this testimony to surrender your life completely to God. Don't wait, don't say its okay, cos time is short. He is coming back for his bride soon. :) Surrendering your life to him is the best thing you can ever do.